Rollercoaster!

This past month has been a huge rollercoaster for me. I have been dealing with a lot of things in my own life as well as some things in a friends. Sometimes when life gets too hard to deal with we tend to chose unhealthy outlets. Well, i happened to chose just one of those this past month. Something that has always been at the back of my mind, but i never fully let it take over. What is this unhealthy outlet you may ask? Well, its a little something called not eating. It's something that I have thought about for a long time. With all of the things that have been going on this month and this over whelming feeling that life is uncontrolable sometimes, I just decided to control something. I dabled in it for a good couple of weeks, and then the last 2 weeks went full force. It felt so wonderful being in control, and i honestly thought I could stop once I got to a weight that I was comfotable at. Well, thanks to a wonderful friend, and a little time at a lake making comparisons between the two of us an our decisions, I realized that not eating is not a good out. Deep down, I think I knew that once I let it take control, that I would not be able to stop. I knew that it was harmful to my self and eventualy to those around me, but I wanted to be in control. It took a lot of soul searching and discussions with a friend,but thankfully I came to this conclusion before it got out of control. I now need to focus my energy on more healthy ways to feel in control.I am not saying that this feeling is gone totaly away, but I have the realization that this is not a good out and can push it away whenever it decides to come back. I don't need to cut out food all together, I can just watch what I eat and make healthier choices. I don't have to say no to cookies and sweets all the time. I can have a cookie or a sweet every once in a while. There is nothing wrong with enjoying some of lifes tasty treats. I can go running or walking when I feel out of control and can let all my energy out that way. I can also talk to my wonderful friend who has helped me through this entire month!
Sometimes we wonder why things happen in our life and why certain people come into our lives, and we never find out until later why they may come into our lives. I am so thankful for friends and family that I know I can turn to in times of need! I am so thankful for the Lord and that he knows what is best for us, and he knows when it is best for things to happen and for certain people to come into our lives. I don't know where I would be without the gospel and some very special friends and family! Thank you to my Mom Deja, and to someone who will remain anonymous, but you know who you are. You have been there for me through the hard times, even if you didn't know it! Thank you oh so very much! I love all 3 of you so much and am so thankful that you are all in my life!
Please don't let this post send you into panic mode, I just felt it was time to let it all out and try and hold my self a little more accountable for my actions. Once stuff is out there, you can't take it back and it makes it easier to follow through with things you say your going to do! So my challenge to all of you, is to look at your own life and see if there are unhealthy outlets that you have chosen to take. If there are, find a healthy outlet and then tell someone so you can be held accountable for it. Thank you all for being there for my family and I! I love you all a ton and hope you have a wonderful week!

Quotes of the week!

I was looking through a box of books, and came across "Small and Simple things", by Marjorie Pay Hinckely. I frogot I even had this. I believe my cousin Kenny gave it to me but I can't remember if it was for my birthday or for Christmas. Either way, I am glad he gave it too me, and I have come across a couple of quotes that I like. "Who knows but that something wonderful may happen today. Have faith that it will. After all, every morning is a chance at a new day."
"Sometimes the pattern of life seems a little monotonous--and discouraging. It is like climbinb a mountain and, after reaching the top, getting knocked back down to the bottom to climb it again; but i guess the fun is in climbing and not in arriving. I hope so!" I really liked these two quotes and wanted to share them. I have read them before, but it always helps to read them again and again. Reminds us why we are here, and that we can succeed. I love you all, and hope you have a wonderful week!

Temple Tuesday!

Today is Tuesday, therefore, it is Temple Tuesday. Every Tuesday for the past year I have been going to the temple with my friend Karyn. I felt the need to start going to the temple regularly about a year ago. Not long after I started going, my dance teacher of more than ten years was diagnosed with cancer again. They say that things happen for a reason, and most of the time it takes months and even years for us to figure out why it happened. They also say that the Lord gives us tools to get through those obsticals much faster than he gives us reasons. Its crazy how one decision can change everything. It can change the life of just one person, or it can change the life of so many. There are so many things that happen in our life, and they pull us in so many directions. You find yourself taking so many different roads, and you never once made the turn on that road your self. So many things have happened since I started going to the temple, and many could say that that is the reason all of the things have been happening. But I know for a fact that was one road I turned on myself, by the promptings of the spirit, and it has changed my life dramitically. It has been the tool in which the lord has given me to get through all of the crap. It is the one place where I can say this is my path, and this is the road that I have chosen for my self. I am so thankful for the lord and all of the tools he has given me in my life. So many times people become tools in our lives, and I am so thankful for all of the wonderful friends and family that have come into my life. The lord has given us friends and family to help us make it through all the many pathways that we chose to take, or are forced to take. He has also given us himself. I know that when I feel there is no where esle I can turn, that I can always turn to the lord. No matter what, I know he knows exactly how I feel, and he has become the best listenerIi have ever found. Thank you Lord, for all the many ups and downs. They have brought me closer to myself, and closer to you!

Slimmy Goodness!

I have been wanting a change for a little while now, and i guess this works!

I have been looking forward for this day for 6 1/2 years. Yup, my braces are finally off, and i am so excited!! I have been waiting for this day for so long, and never thought it would come. I finally get to look my age instead of a twelve year old. Wahoo!!! Other than getting my braces off today, nothing has really happened. I am trying to change my attitude and be more positive, so hopefully this little change will help!! Yea!!!!

Sedona Arizona!

Beautiful Sedona! One of the views we got to see on our 2 hour walk!

I really loved the red rocks! This town was so incredibly beautiful! It reminded me a little of St. George, and i also really love that town!

The entire town looked as if it was made for an old western movie. It was so cute! I thought John Wayne was going to jump out at any second!

The Barking Frog! This is where we ate dinner on our last night! It was so relaxing, and peaceful inside. It was a little expensive, but they had the best chocolate cake i had ever eatin in my life! Yum!

This is Donna, after we decided to go on a 2 hour walk in the heat of the day. Not the brightest idea we had on this vacation, but we survived and got to know the town a little better.

The view from our balcony! Isn't it beautiful?! We got lucky, and our balcony faced the mountains instead of the parking lot! I really enjoyed just sitting out there and taking in the scenery. It was so beautiful, and i didn't want to leave the beauty!

Our wonderful home/condo for the week.

Nice little note for guests who stay at this condo. Not something that made me too excited. I hate animals that can kill me! Hobo spider, scorpion, and two types of poisones snakes. ahhhhhh.

Our kitchen, which we cooked in at least twice a day!

Our first view of Sedona, and we were so excited! 10 hour drive, and we would have been happy with dirt!

We really enjoyed our vacation, and i am really glad that we went. I had a wonderful time, and it was very needed. Now that i am home, i will be getting ready for school. I have signed up for 3 classes this semester, and also recieved a grant! I was so excited, and felt so relieved when i found out i got the grant. I am now excited for the next couple of month! I will try and be better at posting on here. I hope i can try and post at least once a week! Hope you all enjoy your week! Love ya tons! xoxoxo

Who am I...

I have been thinking about a lot of stuff lately, and one of the things that has been on my mind is a phrase from a hymn " who am i to judge another when i walk imperfectly". Another is when the savior said to the many people that wanted to stone a woman, " whom ever is without sin may cast the first stone". These things have been on my mind a lot lately and for a while i was thinking that other people need to have these thoughts on their mind. For the most part, they do, but i have realized i need to as well. I need to stop worrying about other people and what they think and what they do, and just try to be the best person that i can be. As long as the lord and I know what i am doing is right then that is all that matters in the end. I also wish others would take that last part on as well. Sometimes i think we get so caught up in what others may think or say that we forget about the lord and what he will think or say. So, for now i am going to worry about Brandie and making her the best person she can be inward and outward. I am going to try and be kinder to people, more respectful, and start treating everyone as a son or daughter of God, because we all are and we all deserve to be treated like that! I guess i need to remember that when i feel people have done me or my family wrong. Whether they are family or not, they desesrve to be loved and treated like the wonderful son or daughter of God that they are, because in the end we are all family.

Quote of the Day/Week!

I found this quote this morning in a Deseret Book catalog, and i love it! "Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain." Oh my goodness, i really love this quote! Love it, love it, love it! I need to find this quote on a bigger plaque, so i can put it in my room where i can always see it! Wow, i love uplifting quotes, and i think i will need to find a new one every week, and i will share them with you all every week as well! Hope you all enjoy your day and i love ya tons!